Lack of spirit. In need of motivation and inspiration.

This year i woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I step into the new year without any new years resolution and here i am now without any revolution in my life. As a teacher, I totally suck this year. I fall behind in almost everything. I totally lost the motivation.

I Forgot how To flirt!

Haha... what a statement!

After breaking up from a long term relationship. Amazing 10 years ba.. Amazing la mangkali kan.. haha... Being cheated not only once but five times and i still stay loyal and faithful to him. Makes me ask myself "What am i thinking??!!" Giving him so many chances and hoping for him to change is like wishing for the cloud turn into cotton candy! I'm relieved i made that decision and i'm not going to fall back to that situation again. Even when he keep on talking sweet things trying to win my heart back. But hell to the no! I'm not gonna fall into that again! Ever! I Loved him, and that is in past tense because i'm looking forward for the future. Because I know my knight in bright shiny armour will come and make me happy and will take care of me better than him. Yeehaa!

Since I bombarded the door to my heart with bazooka, it's now open and i'm ready to accept those who are lining up waiting for me. Dooooiiiiiiiii..... punya perasannnnnn! But it's true ba! And recently I realize the long 10 years of closed door almost make me forgot the feeling to be cared and to flirt! haha...

The Biggie-B Tales

Chapter 1 : Introduction

Hey y’all Biggie-B is in da’ house....Put your hands up... Put your hands up... How’s that as an intro? Hahaha.. Awkward!!! but I am still me but with a little twist “kunun”. I am so living a routine life so to make it more interesting I decided to write a tale about a princess who lives in a faraway land. Nah.. i lie. It’s just something that i would like to share with you guys out there. Well just ignore the part where i talk to myself. I always do that. Anyway i’m just trying to spice up my life. Everything need to start from something right?

There’s an average looking girl living in the awesome place called Tamparuli. Haha masuk bakul angkat sendiri... you now what i mean... Let’s just skip that. Biggie-B is sort of a nickname for given by a friend of mine back in my high school days. Why biggie-B? Can you figure it out? It’s because of my figure alright. For those who know me they’ll sure know that my biggest asset is my asset which is very prominent and outstanding. Hahahaha. Biggie-B means BIG BOOBS. Hehehe...

As a Biggie-B, there’s a lot of things that I have to endure. All kind of great and not so great experience that I encounter makes me who I am right now. It is part of me that I have to live and deal with. There’s a lot of issues that sometimes makes me sad, embarrass, proud and happy. That’s what I wanted to share with all of you. Forgive me for being very outspoken about these boobs thingy. Because for some people this kind of things is taboo for them but still we can’t ignore the fact that these things exist right? That’s all folks. See you at chapter 2 of the Biggie-B tales. ^_^

Game Over

Right after I posted the entry about how i move on after all that i been through. Suddenly he-who-once-shall-not-be-name came back out of nowhere and decide to play with my heart and emotions again. Saying all that stuff on how he miss me, how he love me, how he miss our happy time together. It's making me weak and weaker by each words. I do remember all those memories; sweet and bitter. But that's all only words and it is not shown by his action which is he is still living with another girl. Trying to win my heart back but in the same time still want to be with someone else. WHAT???!!

Well, enough is enough. I can't go through all those pain anymore it's getting worser every second since the last 3 years he started to play this game. He change a lot. Yes he did. I loved him but not anymore. The pain he causes me is unbearable. I can't play in the game anymore. Game Over. No more players.

- NO THANKS.....-

Just when I...

Just when I decide to move on...

Just when I decide to open my heart again...

Just when I'm about to make a comeback into the world...

Just when I'm about to put myself out there again...

Just when the wound finally healed...

You came back running to me like an idiot.

I Move On.

And the ring.... Is off.....

See the ring itself left a mark on my finger. Same goes to my life. It takes a lot of time for me to recover and move on. I have to do it slow and steady in order to keep my sanity. It's hard. It's just don't happen with a blink of an eye. And today, it just so happen is the 10th years... with tears welling up in my eyes now. I try to be strong and stay strong.

Thanks to my family and friends for helping me getting through all this. All their support and prayers to helps me a lot. I think without them, I can't survive a single day after the big thingy happen. They understand and they love me more than I love myself. For me it is true that love makes us blind, they see me suffering which i realize but never bother because of love. (kunun) Their love to me overflowed and I truly feels it throughout this 4 and a half months. I never realize that i have these wonderful people around me for the past few years. I always ignore them and I know all of this things happen for a reason. God works in a miracle way which we don't know and sometimes don't even understand. So people out there please... appreciate people around you more. Especially your family and friends who are close to you. I'm truly blessed for having sisters who always there for me when i cried at night and needed a hug. I am blessed with friends who will say "No matter what happen, you will still have us." A friend in need is a friend indeed.

Since its the Lent season and Easter is coming in 2 weeks time. It's time for me to forgive and forget. Which I'm trying to do since Christmas. Now, I can say it happily that I don't hate them anymore. I just hope they are happy and they can forgive me too.

And I am happy to say this "I move on"....

Layout.

What's up with the sun on top??
Haha...I just don't care anymore. I just need a new layout. Tired of looking at the sexy lady from my previous blog layout. Nda jg sa pndai jd gitu. Lemak bertumpahan jg ni.

Mongingia

Oku mongingia Amy. Amu ku pandai moboros dusun nga hiti oku monulis hiti blog monombirang monulis dusun kunun. Haha.

Oku mongingia hiti sikul id tanak tonini. Ngaran id sikul ku nga ih SK Mangin, Kota Marudu. Sontoun no ku karaja hiti. Ngam nopo ngawi. Nokuro poh toi oku monulis dusun tih? Sabab nakajadi ku id mongigia boos kadazandusun. Nga poinkuro mangajar tih? Intangai poinkuro boos dusun ku tih? Korowut kan... hahaha

Pardon my broken Dusun. I've been trying to learn to write in kadazandusun since i've been appointed to be year 1 boos kadazandusun teacher. Writing lesson plan in kadazandusun with no basic at all is challenging! That two short paragraph took me 10 minutes of my precious time to write. Imagine how am i going to teach students whose mother tounge is dusun while me still struggling to pronounce the word. Dang!

Anyone who can help me or share to me or give some tips to me on how to teach Boos Kadazandusun please help!

Shy Boy~~

So in love with this MV~~~~~ love...love...love.... the dresses!!!!! I want one of those too.... Guess I really have to put on my jogging shoes and start running again to get back in shape so i can fit in those kind of outfit..Perhaps they will be one shy boy for me out there... haahahhaha

I think i will make a come back this year.

I think i will make a come back this year. Will start blogging again. Like seriously i will.

*Tu jak sa mampu tulis ni ari~~~ haha*

Meet Mr Tabby.

Hello world. Meet Mr Tabby. He's from another galaxy. Hahaha...

After a loongggg... loonnggg ... and very hard thinking and comparing. With the support from my sisters and cousin. Galaxy Tab win the battle against ipad and iphone.

With just a swipe of a card, ka-ching! That galaxy tab now is mine and I called him Mr Tabby. There goes another deep hole in my pocket. Biar kaya hutang asal saya happy~~~~ Haha..

Teaching Career

5th January 2011 - It's been a year since I started my teaching career officially and I realize that I never mention anything about my school on this blog. There's a lot of things to write about but I never find the right moment to write. I'm so messed up last year. Will blog about that later if i'm in the mood.

Looking back at the road I take every morning to reach my school I felt like times goes by just like that. First year as a teacher was very rough. My personal life almost collide with my professional life. But I manage to hold on.

The cold morning breeze brings chills to my bones but it will never freeze my will to teach.

Hello 2011~~

Happy new year!!!

I have new look for my blog....

Very sexy~~~~ hahahaha

I very like like it... haha

Hope i'm more motivated to blog with this new look...